I haven’t really talked about it here, but I guess it’s time.  I go through these cycles where my crazy ramps up.  Where my focus is lost, but where I have the motivation and eagerness to do anything.  Everything.  This cycle usually comes after some time of sitting around, doing absolutely nothing.  And if it weren’t for the fact that 50% of the time I have a toddler here, and I refuse to be a Crazy Mother, I might totally lose it and not keep my shit together.  But I’m pretty good and together and I know how to wake up and go to work every morning, so my crazy isn’t nearly as bad as one might think, especially considering the dramatic description I just gave it.

So I’m right now in the part of the cycle where I want to do everything:

• I have christmas knitting ALMOST DONE.  Finished right mitten last night.  Tonight I will tackle left mitten by re-working the pointy hand, and finishing off the finger and thumb.
• I agreed to a sock challenge next week.  The Hawaii Ironman sock challenge.  Which is ridiculous because I’m going on vacation, but not really, because I’m visiting family and skating in a derby tournament and visiting old friends, and taking my son.  So in between all of that I’m sure plenty of sock knitting is going to get done.  Uh huh.  Yeah joce, you’ve pretty much won it.
• I kind of want to CO for another sweater.  But shhh don’t tell anyone.
• I am currently obsessed with money blogs.  Specifically money blogs of single moms who don’t make a whole lot.  Basically women that I can identify with.
• Running a half and full marathon has always been on my list.  My mind is thinking half this year.  Like Harvest Half maybe?  Maybe not.  We will see.
• Shaun T, Insanity.
• Weight loss blogs, always my fav.
• Menu planning.  I’m determined to develop menu plans and shopping lists that don’t get old, that don’t cost an arm and a leg, and that my son will eat.  As a sidenote it turns out that he loves cucumber, tomato and zucchini, and will eat each of them raw.
• Time management.  Because whenever I get into this frenzy, time management and organization pops up and I feel the need to harness some energy and get myself in a place where I make lists and accomplish things.  A good friend of mine pointed me in the direction of David Allen’s Getting Things Done, and apparently it’s a whole cult that I wasn’t invited to back in the day.  Well I got my invitation.  And because I’m not spending money (see money blogs bit) I am weeding through info on the internet.  Not the same, I know, but I’ll buy the book at the end of the month provided I came in under budget.  Or you know, shell out the twelve bucks to renew my library card.  Which might actually be more than that, since I might have lost the card.  Because I am organized.
• Emotions?  I don’t know how to label this one.  I’m trying to deal with my insides a little bit.

Individually these things all sounds kind of healthy.  But taken on all at once?  My mind is racing and I’m having a hard time focusing on what exactly I should be doing right now.

It’s kind of my year and I’m getting excited about being in charge of me, about calling the shots and not having to justify my choices.  I’ve been staying up until 4 and sleeping in until noon, and holy hell is it fantastic.  I’m on vacation.  My office is completely closed from noon, December 24 and reopens 8AM Jan 4.  And I’ve taken until the 18th off as vacay.  So I’m soaking it up and loving it.